Being Irrational is hard enough without being scared of Nothing

Honestly. Word of the day. yet Honesty Is a thing best left well alone.
The hardest part of having stupid fears is admitting that their STUPID. Far from stupid and very real are my very own fears.
like children just ones that you'd rather keep locked in a cupbord or just under your bed. If thats not where the little monsters already dwell.

Abandoment The worst and most Horrific thought that crosses my mind when its cold and dark and I feel more so.
I love having time on my own because i know that theres always someone to comeback to. If there wasnt then, alone time would be pointless. No?
Honestly it scares me to be left alone for Long periods of time, Nights are the worse, some how the dark makes everything so amazing and more abstract but makes being alone a Hell of alot more Lonley even when there are people in close range.

The next one is alot more personal. Its well the complete and utter loss of my mental stability.
Its like teetering on the edge of a cliff and well noone wants to know whats on the other side. well i dont any road. its making me feel rather Ill to think about it.

Basically Im unstable and Insecure, whats new? Im just feeling it alot more today. Meh i cant be fucked to go into details

Im not writing in my normal fashion as im too busy watching Jo Brand Barely live, Im really into her this week. I read her book. repeatidly