Stop living in your head, and get real kid....

Nothing seems right today, i just want it to rain.
i cant deal with all of this drama it gets to me, just like this city.
im not cut out to deal with this forever.
The friends i have are amazing but im missing something and I've realised what it is
i miss having that really close relationship that i had with our kid, shes like my soul sister
and currently i need that just to remind me to stay grounded.
currently i feel like im wasting myself on people who don't deserve me or maybe its just this little
patch
of
concrete
thats making me
stir
crazy.
I wanna run away, nobody understands how much i need to be alone these days but alone in my own way, social situations mean i have to waste effort on people i cant stand
amd we all know who that means.
YOU, i fell out of love at 80 mph, ive got the scars to prove it