What we have here is a dreamer

Dear Santa,
This year for Christmas i want to slow it all down so i can watch it pass me by.
i want higher serotonin levels and to be taken seriously by someone who truly matters
what i want doesnt matter but what i need is in the same boat...an its headed for the rocks
just like everything else.
Santa, why do you insist in puttin me through the same shit as you did last year.
why?
I could feel it coming but what did you expect me to do...
You cant run away from your own head as much as you want to.
I need to be able to close my eyes and have a reason to open them again.
save me? from who? isnt it obvious...Myself


please