you know who you are when your you.
sleep/slash/drink/laugh/fall/fuck/smoke/lie/hide/think/strop/sleep/slash/sleep/slash/drink/laugh/fall/fuck/smoke/lie/hide/think/strop.....
Wednesday 31 December 2008
Wednesday 17 December 2008
Papercuts
smoking my last fag in stages. B&H gold.
Cold mulled wine one bottle...empty stomach. hardly any food in.
I wish it would all go away.
I cant feel my heart beating, i wish i could then id know how to stop it. rip it out
blood is comforting.
Angsty mood. I want to get wrecked and lose control for a while.
Phones off. lights off.
I wish i could change it all.
Fuck the world tonight, its not mine.
A shard of glass, running it up and down. still no blood.
I wish i was bleeding outside.
so.fucking.low.
Im leaving.
Cold mulled wine one bottle...empty stomach. hardly any food in.
I wish it would all go away.
I cant feel my heart beating, i wish i could then id know how to stop it. rip it out
blood is comforting.
Angsty mood. I want to get wrecked and lose control for a while.
Phones off. lights off.
I wish i could change it all.
Fuck the world tonight, its not mine.
A shard of glass, running it up and down. still no blood.
I wish i was bleeding outside.
so.fucking.low.
Im leaving.
Monday 15 December 2008
one of the BEST WEEKEND(s) EVAH!
Friday: Boosh live @ Wemb. EPIC FUNTIMES
saturday: Shopping & Zine'ing with Sarah
Sunday: Camden with grace. Such a laugh.
Monday: BOOSH SIGNING!!! (Leah, Grace, jubey & Booshers) Such a wicked day. 5am start. the alley was very win all day was knackering. Quing to the max. we met them about 2pm I went first very scary. I did an "alright mate" at Barratt, he signed my book and i was me & grace got you these (Cravat & jazzy icecube trays) You HAVE to wear the cravat in the show and he was like YEAH and then grace was like Aberdeen yeah? and he asked me if i was going i was like no but she is and he seemed genuinly pleased with them!!! then i moved over to Noel (ahhh) and he was reading the bloody rick james post card and we had a convo and he was like this is wicked and i was like yeah iknow we found it in zavvi and i said turn it over weve written a note and then i gave him the tee and said "this is in memory of thr 70s lesbian cut" and he seemed genuinly chuffed (AHHHH) and he showed Ju and he laughed at both and Noel was like "These are the best presents weve had all day..Ill wear it tonight" AHHHA (happy nella yeah!!) and then he gave me a kiss like i didnt even ask he just did....Ive just found pics!!!
saturday: Shopping & Zine'ing with Sarah
Sunday: Camden with grace. Such a laugh.
Monday: BOOSH SIGNING!!! (Leah, Grace, jubey & Booshers) Such a wicked day. 5am start. the alley was very win all day was knackering. Quing to the max. we met them about 2pm I went first very scary. I did an "alright mate" at Barratt, he signed my book and i was me & grace got you these (Cravat & jazzy icecube trays) You HAVE to wear the cravat in the show and he was like YEAH and then grace was like Aberdeen yeah? and he asked me if i was going i was like no but she is and he seemed genuinly pleased with them!!! then i moved over to Noel (ahhh) and he was reading the bloody rick james post card and we had a convo and he was like this is wicked and i was like yeah iknow we found it in zavvi and i said turn it over weve written a note and then i gave him the tee and said "this is in memory of thr 70s lesbian cut" and he seemed genuinly chuffed (AHHHH) and he showed Ju and he laughed at both and Noel was like "These are the best presents weve had all day..Ill wear it tonight" AHHHA (happy nella yeah!!) and then he gave me a kiss like i didnt even ask he just did....Ive just found pics!!!
Thursday 11 December 2008
Beautiful inside my mind, always.
People tell me im Pretty. Lair's
they only do this because i look different, odd
I stick out. I wish i could be ripped up and started again sometimes.
I hate it. I want to melt away.
I only see beauty in perfection.
I cant see beauty in perfection.
I wish people would stop lying to me. Someone else needs to see me through my eyes.
they only do this because i look different, odd
I stick out. I wish i could be ripped up and started again sometimes.
I hate it. I want to melt away.
I only see beauty in perfection.
I cant see beauty in perfection.
I wish people would stop lying to me. Someone else needs to see me through my eyes.
Ladder safety.
This is what I wrote before i was bedazzled by Grayson Perry.
I spent some of my darkest days wedged in between 'hill pixies' & 'barn owls'
Multiple shades of Tan and the occasional Beige.
So consuming that if i had been at the bottom of an avalanche the breaths would of come easier
and hurt less.
Pointless tasks to cover up other pointless tasks to hide the meaningless of the consumerism
that was at the root of everything I was being forced to do.
I spent some of my darkest days wedged in between 'hill pixies' & 'barn owls'
Multiple shades of Tan and the occasional Beige.
So consuming that if i had been at the bottom of an avalanche the breaths would of come easier
and hurt less.
Pointless tasks to cover up other pointless tasks to hide the meaningless of the consumerism
that was at the root of everything I was being forced to do.
Monday 1 December 2008
Tell tale teenage heart init.
I Know this girl whos bloke beats her black and blue.
when she does she runs to her best mate who rings him up and call him a cunt,
But what i dont get is why this girl has a picture of her bloke on her facebook profile.
and is proclaiming t'the world that she loves him.
Her heart beats black and blue.
when she does she runs to her best mate who rings him up and call him a cunt,
But what i dont get is why this girl has a picture of her bloke on her facebook profile.
and is proclaiming t'the world that she loves him.
Her heart beats black and blue.
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