What's on the cards?

Question:
School wise what am I doing? Should I stay at Brentford or should I try and go to college? If I stay will I get any work done or just keep pissing about? If I go will I be happy at college and will it work for me?

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Row 1: Seems you've recently had a feeling of loneliness lately. You're surrounded by friends and loved ones, but you don't feel they "get" you like they used to do.

Row 2: You're having to do a lot of soul searching at the moment. You're not really unhappy, but more restless right now. Things just don't seem to be going according to plan, and you're really not good with this.

Row 3: You've recently lost someone very close to you; a female that had a huge role in your life. You're coping pretty well, but it's sent you for a loop. Mortality hit you all of a sudden, and you're looking at what you've done up to now and thinking, "This just isn't enough. There has to be more." Only problem is that you aren't sure where to look for inspiration or even a starting point to help sort yourself out.

Row 4: Sometime in the next month or two, an opportunity will be presented to you in the field of design or fine arts. There's a very creative vibe I'm getting, and it seems to be the outlet you're wanting at this juncture. It's not your ideal thing, but it's a start, and you'll gobble it up without too much hesitation.

Row 5 (final row): This one's throwing me a bit. There's like a romantic yet not serious vibe to this row. What I'm getting is that you have a friend who will be a really important person to you in the next few months; but it will go beyond the normal friendship. It's a bit more intimate than that, and yet it's not going to be this huge commitment. You'll be helping one another through some events, good and bad, and just have this great relationship without fear of losing anything from it.
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It appears to me that it's someone that you already know, but you haven't been intimate before with them. It's more like you already have a decent relationship, but you're being thrown together in a way that allows you both to explore and grow at the same time, making the relationship grow as well.