Fuck what i said last night.

Gone up in smoke,
I got the message this morning and it didnt register at all,
Only upon listening back to it did i realise what the fuck it ment.
what did i do, i rang my mother, it didnt even ring....straight to voicemail.
this is how it is.
I ringing the number back i sould stop shaking
then i couldnt stop crying.
now im just empty, and hating everything
im done with stupid mistakes, im done with him. im just THROUGH.
I want the buzz back.
figures are daunting, am i coping NO
need a hug so badly, the clouds are crawling over the optimistc blue sky.
sigh