Here I go again on my own.

"I'm done with this shit"

EDIT.

I've gotten really good at putting on a brave face because this time, I'm really done with this shit.

Retrospect

It scares me how angry and hurt I was in the last post, but that's exactly what i was; angry and hurt.

I was out of control mentally, I feel better now more in control but not totally.

I'm on the edge of losing it but i've got the ability to hold on for a little bit.
Alot of me want to drink gin and wallow but i know i can't, mostly just scared.

Scared little girl. Scared & well Scared. I do just want to get out of my head but i passed on it tonight because i had to prioritise.

I fucking love being a waster but i want to do something i can be proud of.

Goodfucking luck to me.